First things first: I did change my hair! It’s trimmed and darker and I hate it. Ha! I dislike it enough that I am waiting to get it fixed before I get my headshots taken (that appointment was scheduled for earlier today).
(If you’d like to take a peek at my folly, this is what it looks like.)
The real point of today’s post is this, though: I feel like I’ve had quite a lot of near-misses lately. Lots of callbacks and getting pretty far in the audition process and having people contact me/pick me out specifically from the online things I’ve submitted for…and I’ve still not gotten any actual jobs.
Maestro made the comment that “it’s like you’re trying to hit a target on the wall, but it’s so small, it’s just a dot. And you’re licking gummi bears and throwing them at the wall, trying to get them to stick to the dot. You just have to keep licking gummi bears.” He was very proud of this metaphor. (Nerd.)
It’s tough, because I am glad that I’m at least getting some interest? But on the other hand, I’m a little disheartened, because I’ve failed to secure anything. There’s a whole host of things that could be going on here but of course my mind goes to “oh you’re actually kind of weird looking on camera” or “oh you’re not a very good actress” as the primary things that I’m sure must be happening.
But – you know, I guess I just have to keep submitting and auditioning (and I have to get my hair fixed so I can have a proper headshot). Honing my work, getting my audition monologues up to par. Keep throwing those gummi bears and see what sticks.