[This is where the picture of my new monologue and scene books would go if I’d remembered to bring them in from my car]
Here’s where I apologize for not taking any pictures today!: Sorry! (Or not any applicable pictures; I guess I could post the one I took of my teacup.)
What I did do today (cough yesterday) was this:
sang A LOT; like a lot a lot
had an extremely productive conversation with D about the direction my life is going
SO MANY IDEAS!
(it’s so nice everyone is so excited about this with me??)
used a gift card from last Christmas to purchase some monologue and scenework books
Not to mention the fact that I had a similarly productive conversation with B yesterday – everyone in my life has been very enthusiastic about my getting back into theatre and performing, which I can only think is a good thing! It does seem (a little) like things have conspired to make me feel this way – that I need to go back to it in some form – and who am I to argue with the universe, I guess?
(Seriously though, I hope that picture still looks enough like me so that they’ll remember who I am.)
I didn’t get to do as much as I wanted to do today, but that means this’ll be a short post. Which is fine, since my last one was SUPER LONG.
Obviously I did get to organize my sheet music and resumes; apparently the theme here is “yellow.” Do you see how I cleverly cut out my last name?
I also got to practice quite a bit! And I bought some throat-coat tea! (I’m not actually sick but my throat has been slightly dry and scratchy and it’s always good to be prepared, like a good Boy Scout.)
I’ve had a couple of thoughts about that One Impressive Song I need for an audition that’s coming up later this month, but I’ll talk about that at some other time.
I’m thinking about maybe even recording myself singing, to get a better idea of what I sound like. I probably won’t post anything, but even recording it just for myself is different for me – I’ll have to force myself to actually listen to them.
I’m actually really excited about all of this – it’s nice to feel prepared for once!
As I hinted in my last post, I’ve been giving a lot of thought to the fact that I’ve taken such a long hiatus from performing. Especially over this summer, I’ve been wondering why I’ve let that fall by the wayside. I’ve had my reasons – being in school and working full-time does leave me little time to audition and even less time to commit to a rehearsal schedule.
But even before I went back to school, I’d been away from performing for quite some time. As much as I liked to think that I committed to Pursuing My Dream…did I? I’ve been wondering a lot about that, lately.
In any case, since I’m currently out of a job (thanks, public school system!) I’ve had even more time to think about this lately – and more time to look for and contemplate auditions. I’ve found a couple that look especially promising and I’ve talked to enough people about them now that I feel as though I’ve absolutely committed to going to them. (It’s amazing what making yourself accountable can do, right?)
But let me get to the point: I haven’t been to an audition in over a YEAR. I feel as though I have a TON of preparing to do!
pick out my audition songs
make sure my sheet music is marked appropriately!
get out my audition clothes and dancin’ shoes
update my resume!
…I definitely don’t have time to get new headshots done even though my old ones are so out of date
probably a ton of other stuff I’m not thinking of…
So I’ll be updating about that as I get prepared! (One of these auditions is only A WEEK AWAY, ahh!)
Maybe more than anything else, this was the gift I got this year on my anniversary:
“I want to get you to the point that you’re singing. Everything, all the time…and not worrying about it.”
“Because that’s who you are.”
Without sounding too melodramatic (oh, who am I kidding), it changed how I’ve been thinking about myself lately. Because that’s who you are. Such a simple thing; a simple thing to say and a simple thing to mean. And he was right. I think that’s the part that really hit me. That is who I am. How did I get to this point, this wall that I’ve come up against again and again? How did I get to the point I’ve been at for years and years – how did it become fear that ruled over that impulse? Somehow, just hearing that put all my fears into an odd sort of perspective.
More than the keyboard and the singing lessons, hearing that from his mouth was the most important gift, most important push towards what he wants for me. And more importantly, what I’ve wanted for myself.
So: I went! I did it! (I’m number 1, as evidenced in that top left picture.)
Because I have the sense of direction of a thumbtack, I somehow ended up in a totally different city than I needed to be to get on the train. Seriously, I’ve driven to that train station a frillion times, I don’t know how this happens to me other than the fact that I have the sense of direction of a thumbtack. I ended up being a half an hour out of my way and had to turn around to backtrack and finally get to the station I needed.
I have to thank the lady who sat down next to me on the Orange Line and talked at me (about her nails and her husband and people being rude on the train) for the ten minutes or so we shared a train – sincerely – I really needed the distraction. The nerves I lamented not feeling yesterday afternoon were in full force about an hour earlier than I even needed to wake up, and didn’t abate until I was finished.
So, I’ve been slacking, haven’t I? Gosh! No posts in all of February!
To be honest, I haven’t been doing much to write about. There’s the additional fact that I used to draft my posts on my lunch break at work, and now my work blocks WordPress (??) so although I do finally have something to write about, I haven’t had as much of an opportunity.
My two best friends and I started on a new project that we’ve dubbed Get It Together Anonymous, or GITA. All three of us have long-term goals that we range from somewhat-to-ridiculously overwhelmed just thinking about, so my darling D came up with the brilliant idea that we would be Accountability Partners.
Basically, we’re getting together once a month to start breaking down our long-term goals into tiny manageable steps. Doing this together creates accountability – and it has the added benefit of being a built-in sounding board. You know how it’s always so much easier to see other people’s problems clearly? Well, now I have TWO people looking at my problems and helping me see them more clearly on a regular basis.
I think an excellent way to help keep myself on track will be to update this blog on a regular basis again, so here’s a breakdown of my goals.
My long-term goal is to get more paid acting work, though one of my other long-term goals is refining and redefining my long-term goal. The upshot of every iteration of my long-term goal is to start getting paid acting work, though.
PC finished arranging last night, and he and I finished burning and assembling CDs this afternoon, so the Secret Government Eggo Project is officially done!
As you all might have guessed, the Secret Government Eggo Project is, actually, an album. A Christmas album, to be exact! In the interests of putting myself out there, I’ve decided to share some of the album with all of you that have traveled along on my journey with me!
(Eventually I will write about my ~*feelings*~ with regards to this, but not just yet.)
christmas!: or the secret government eggo project
Click on the album art above to be taken to my brand spanking new Bandcamp site, where you can listen to and download a sampling of tracks from the album! (I still haven’t figured out most of it yet, you’ll have to forgive me!)
Last night was dress rehearsal, and due to the living museum nature of the show, we all got a chance to walk through and see everyone else’s scenes. It was wonderful to finally get into the space we’ll be performing in, and getting a feel for the entire show. We’ve all heard each other do our monologues before, but this was the first time we got to see it in the actual space, which does indeed make a difference.
It’s interesting, because the book the show is based on is set in the actual house we’re performing in – it gives it an extra layer of authenticity. Add in how creaky and dark some of the rooms are, and the secret staircases!, and you have a recipe for a very unsettling but fun show.
I’m nervous, but mostly just tired! The shows this weekend are shorter than usual, so it’ll be a nice ease-in to the rest of what this month is going to be like. Traffic is already horrendous getting in and out of Salem, but that’s sort of to be expected, isn’t it?
In related exciting news, the director spoke with me last night about coming back to do the Christmas show – she’d like me to play Amy in Little Women! YAY!! :D
The biggest problem I saw while I was there is that they are sorely lacking in the male department. So…sending that request out into the universe. MALES. THEY NEED YOU.
I got to sing for both Sandy and Marty, but I only read for Marty once and then read for Sandy a bunch of times; I think my Sandy readings and singing went better than my Marty stuff. (It doesn’t help that I forgot that “Freddy, My Love ” is kind of low for me?) I felt really good about my readings in general, but I suppose compared to finding my break halfway through “Freddy, My Love” anything would be better! (Eeek!)
I had the bonus fun of seeing a couple of my Into the Woods castmates at auditions last night, including my “momma” (who was auditioning for Rizzo). I didn’t realize how much I missed them!
So hopefully we’ll hear something by Friday. I’m not sure what they’re planning on doing if they can’t get enough guys, but hopefully we’ll hear one way or the other.