a little faith, and a lot of heart.

or: AUDITION PREP 2013!!!!!

As I hinted in my last post, I’ve been giving a lot of thought to the fact that I’ve taken such a long hiatus from performing.  Especially over this summer, I’ve been wondering why I’ve let that fall by the wayside.  I’ve had my reasons – being in school and working full-time does leave me little time to audition and even less time to commit to a rehearsal schedule.

But even before I went back to school, I’d been away from performing for quite some time.  As much as I liked to think that I committed to Pursuing My Dream…did I? I’ve been wondering a lot about that, lately.

In any case, since I’m currently out of a job (thanks, public school system!) I’ve had even more time to think about this lately – and more time to look for and contemplate auditions.  I’ve found a couple that look especially promising and I’ve talked to enough people about them now that I feel as though I’ve absolutely committed to going to them. (It’s amazing what making yourself accountable can do, right?)

But let me get to the point: I haven’t been to an audition in over a YEAR.  I feel as though I have a TON of preparing to do!

  • pick out my audition songs
  • make sure my sheet music is marked appropriately!
  • get out my audition clothes and dancin’ shoes
  • update my resume!
  • …I definitely don’t have time to get new headshots done even though my old ones are so out of date
  • probably a ton of other stuff I’m not thinking of…

So I’ll be updating about that as I get prepared!  (One of these auditions is only A WEEK AWAY, ahh!)


I’ll make this painless, I’ll try to be sweet.

So, I’ve been slacking, haven’t I? Gosh! No posts in all of February!

To be honest, I haven’t been doing much to write about. There’s the additional fact that I used to draft my posts on my lunch break at work, and now my work blocks WordPress (??) so although I do finally have something to write about, I haven’t had as much of an opportunity.

My two best friends and I started on a new project that we’ve dubbed Get It Together Anonymous, or GITA. All three of us have long-term goals that we range from somewhat-to-ridiculously overwhelmed just thinking about, so my darling D came up with the brilliant idea that we would be Accountability Partners.

Basically, we’re getting together once a month to start breaking down our long-term goals into tiny manageable steps. Doing this together creates accountability – and it has the added benefit of being a built-in sounding board. You know how it’s always so much easier to see other people’s problems clearly? Well, now I have TWO people looking at my problems and helping me see them more clearly on a regular basis.

I think an excellent way to help keep myself on track will be to update this blog on a regular basis again, so here’s a breakdown of my goals.

My long-term goal is to get more paid acting work, though one of my other long-term goals is refining and redefining my long-term goal. The upshot of every iteration of my long-term goal is to start getting paid acting work, though.

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it’s been such a long time. I think I should be going.

I am sorry for the silence lately, everyone!

I’m sort of re-evaluating things in light of the new year – resolutions, the direction I expect my life to be taking at this point. You know, all the usual new-year stuff. A lot of it is fairly personal, so I don’t have much to write about at the moment.

But even before the new year, I didn’t write much in the past couple of months. In truth, there was not an awful lot to write about with regards to acting, since I didn’t audition for anything while I was working my Halloween and Christmas jobs (and I’d sort of exhausted that topic already). I haven’t been to a singing lesson in months, and what I did write about was the Secret Government Eggo Project – which seems to have gotten a good reception, at least by friends and family. :)

Hopefully in the next few weeks I’ll be able to write more clearly about what my goals for the year are. (I honestly don’t remember what my “New Year’s Resolutions” were other than the fact that I wasn’t allowed to give up singing for one of them and I wasn’t allowed to lose thirty pounds for the other.) As of right now, I’m just looking for things to audition for and wondering about how I’m going to pay for my singing lessons if I do take them back up again. Any further into the future just gets a little fuzzy and hard to focus on for too long.

Hopefully soon, though…!

I could have been a famous singer, if I had someone else’s voice.

I feel that the title of this post is pretty self-explanatory (though it is also a song lyric).

Sunday night – and it was night, my maestro is quite nocturnal – PC and I began our Secret Government Eggo Project. I, of course, began with a sense of trepidaton bordering on full-blown panic. With my heart in my throat, fingers vibrating with fear, I asked him “why? Why? Why is this so scary?” (Sometimes I repeat things three times for no reason.)

“I can’t answer that for you,” he said, and took my hand. I clutched at him and he squeezed my hand just hard enough to hurt. And away we went.

(I didn’t hold his hand the entire time, though, he did have to conduct me. Which, strangely, helps.)

In any case, I didn’t wheedle my way out of it completely (I can be very convincing when I am afraid of doing something!) and we got a lot of good material despite it being past midnight when we finished. All in all, it was more exhausting than the four-hour shift I had at my show the night previous.

If I keep doing this, maybe it will be like driving – I start off petrified and panicky, but eventually it won’t be that big of a deal to me. Like driving, I’ll still be constantly vigilant (because if you do driving wrong you can, you know, die), but I will be more comfortable and less inclined to panicked crying. One can only hope.

He really is very patient with me, he’s somehow struck the balance between not letting me get away with anything and not wounding my delicate flower feelings. (Delicate floral feelings?) I’m enjoying it, so far – the work that he’s done is beautiful, as usual, and I enjoy working with him. I just hope I’m not ruining it completely with my voice. D:

a real actress!

Dear readers, I have wonderfully good news to impart to you today!

Your protagonist for the duration of this blog, one acting ingénue, is now officially a working actress!

Or, as Satine would say:

"a REAL actress!"

a REAL actress!

Hee! :D

This is the audition I mentioned in my last post, obliquely. It is for a museum in Salem, Massachusetts for the duration of the Halloween season. (Thankfully – THANKFULLY – the performances don’t start until after my bff D’s wedding!) I love Salem, I love Halloween, I love Victorian literature – especially Gothic novels!, I love history, and I love, love, love, love, LOVE feeling as though people believe in what I can do!

I got the job before I even left the audition, which is rare (to say the least) – the director pulled me aside on the conceit that she was asking me how far I’d had to drive but as people started to filter out she told me that she definitely wanted to cast me (though she wasn’t sure in which part, yet). :D! I cannot even begin to express how thrilled I am that she wanted to cast me right off the bat – !!

I also talked to her about possibly coming to do the Christmas show, depending on who she has coming back from last year, which would be amazing as well!

Unfortunately, I had to “give notice” for Grease yesterday as well. As sad as it was – and it was sad! the director and the stage manager both went “nooooooo!!” when I told them – they were all very happy for me, and I didn’t burn any bridges. They told me definitely to come back if they’re doing something in the future. I was glad that I went down in person to talk to them about it instead of chickening out and calling (like I wanted to).

Tonight was my very first rehearsal and I couldn’t be more excited!!

I’m a little lamb who’s lost in the wood.

Have I ever mentioned how glad I am for the invention of the GPS? Because I am seriously glad. I would never be able to get anywhere without it, since I am Miss No-Sense-of-Direction.

Yesterday I had another meeting at a casting agency, and here are my notes from when I was sitting in the waiting room:

I don’t know if this is reassuring or not, but:
a) there aren’t 100 other people here (just one other guy!)
b) this place is nowhere near as flashy/glam as JRP
c) there are a lot of pictures of a dude in a cowboy hat on the walls.

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and maybe, if I pray every night, you’ll come back to me.

I had my very first lesson with my new voice teacher last night!!

I’ve already decided what to call her: Genki Girl. She is remarkably enthusiastic and giggly while at the same time she’s very precise and explains things in a clear and relatable fashion. Actually, she makes me think of what I imagine my BFF’s teaching style must be like!

I forgot to mention last time, but Jordan Hall is where the NEC teachers conduct their lessons. Jordan Hall is (maybe obviously?) a concert hall, and it feels very official and fancy to be practising right across the hallway from a gorgeous concert hall!

Needless to say, my first lesson went very well.
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I’m not one to raise my voice.

Yesterday I worked on looked at
Caro nome; Rigoletto
The Girl in 14-G
Nothing Is Too Wonderful To Be True; Dirty Rotten Scoundrels (I can’t find this!)

The only one of those I actually “worked on” was Nothing Is Too Wonderful, since it’s the only one I sort-of know. I’m looking at it as an audition piece, since I don’t have a lot of contemporary stuff in my repertoire.

MP seemed at least content with my performance, if not outright thrilled. I don’t know, I didn’t want to press her, but I did tell her that I’d felt terrible about it. She wasn’t effusive, but she did tell me she’d been pleased with it.

I’m trying to set up a placement audition elsewhere at the moment, more news on that when I know more!

maybe I’m on nobody’s side!

Saturday I ventured into Boston to interview with John Robert Powers, which presents itself as an agency and a school.

It is, as I suspected, a bit of a scam. A very expensive scam. Of course, they adored me, and wanted to book an appointment to get me all signed up right away, which at the time I thought was very exciting and flattering (advanced classes, they said! beautiful coloring, they told me!). Once I did a little bit of research I called them back to cancel (since my appointment was supposed to be today).

I am getting better at being savvy and doing my research. A couple of years ago I would have given them my money because they told me I was pretty. A legitimate agency, as far as I can tell, will not hold classes and expect you to pay for them to work with the agency.

Acquiring a set of jade-colored glasses does have its benefits, I suppose. My next adventure is looking into a possible switch of voice instruction and finding a legitimate agent or agency to take me on.

I also heard from K, who directed Into the Woods, and she wants me to come out to audition for Grease, which might be fun! I’m flattered that she thought of me. :D

Oh. And the piano-bar-act that PC and I were thinking about doing probably is not going to happen, for various personal reasons. I wish I could say I’m surprised, but.